This is a sequel to my Bane origins saga, Risen From Darkness (found here: http://www.nolanfans.com/forums/viewtop ... 16&t=11993 )
When we last left Bane and Talia, they were with Henri Ducard at the mountain headquarters of the League of Shadows where Bane is recovering from injuries suffered during Talia's escape from the pit.
One
Within seconds of the mask closing over his mouth and nose, Bane panicked. He could not breathe, and the world closed in upon him, as if he were back in the pit prison and the shaft were collapsing over him.
“Get it off!” he cried, scrabbling with his fingers to find the fasteners where the mask wrapped around the back of his head.
“Wait,” Choden, his medical attendant, insisted, attempting to block Bane’s efforts. “Breathe. Breathe and relax.”
“I can’t breathe! Take it off!”
“You’re hurting him!” Talia’s shrill voice added to the confusion in the room. The ten-year-old tried to pull away from her father, who stood watching, but Henri Ducard’s large hands upon her shoulders held her in place. “Choden, stop! Take it off!”
At last Bane dislodged the mask, which Choden had not been able to completely secure due to his patient’s struggles. Bane batted it from his face, and as it fell beside him on his bed, he jumped to his feet, shoved away from Choden, and stood with his back to the near wall, facing his tormentor, gasping through the wreckage of his mutilated face. Even though he was dosed with morphine, sharp pain still found its way through the drug’s defense. Talia broke free from her father—or perhaps Ducard released her—and she ran to Bane, throwing her arms around his waist and staring defiantly, protectively over her shoulder at Choden. The Tibetan attendant sighed and shook his head.
“Bane,” Ducard said in his usual placid tone, stepping forward to pick up the mask. “A claustrophobic reaction is expected, but you must face your fear and conquer it quickly or this—” he held up the mask, “—cannot help you. And without this, you have no hope of a fully functioning existence. You’ve refused surgery; this is your only option now.”
As he listened to Ducard, Bane forcibly slowed his breathing, closed his eyes momentarily, nodded in resignation. Yet his heart still hammered against his chest; no doubt Talia could hear it from where she pressed against him. He briefly, appreciatively returned her embrace, gaining strength from her touch, one hand stroking her new growth of hair—dark and soft, like her mother’s hair had been. He hated for her to see him with his bandages off and his injuries thus laid bare—his nose in ruin, having nearly been severed from his face, deep lacerations that were still healing, some that refused to knit, his torn lips giving him a permanent, gruesome grimace that revealed several missing teeth; all the result of a horrendous beating suffered at the hands of fellow inmates when he had fought to keep them away from Talia on the day of her escape.
“I’m sorry, Choden,” Bane said, embarrassed now by his display of weakness and fear.
His ever-tolerant attendant bowed with understanding. “You needed to prepare yourself better,” Choden said. “I warned you. You were too eager for this to work, too sure of your own abilities. Humility is a valuable virtue, my friend, one you would do well to learn. Now come…sit back down.”
“You don’t have to, habibi,” Talia said defensively. “Why don’t you wait to try it on tomorrow?” She gave Choden a chilly, challenging glance.
Bane had noticed a change in Talia ever since word had arrived that the prototype mask was finished and would soon be delivered to their refuge high in the Himilayas. He had expected her to be excited and anxious, as he had been, but instead she had grown quiet and thoughtful. Now, looking into her large blue eyes, he realized that she was afraid, afraid that the mask would enable him to regain some semblance of his old self and then that would lead to him leaving her to find his own way in the world, a world that was virtually unknown to the two of them after spending all of their young lives unjustly incarcerated in an underground prison until two months ago.
“Talia,” Ducard said. “It is Bane’s decision to make.”
“It’s all right, habibati,” Bane assured, gently taking her by the shoulders and urging her back from him. “I should try again. Choden and your father are right.”
She frowned with worry and held his hand, all the while bravely refusing to look away from the ruination of his face. He knew that seeing him without his bandages caused Talia as much emotional pain as they caused him physical pain because she blamed herself for what had happened to him, no matter how many times he insisted she abandon her guilt. So the sooner he allowed the mask to hide these marks from her, the better.
She continued to hold his hand as he returned to the bed where she then sat close beside him, all the while keeping her attention upon him. Ever since Talia’s father had rescued him from the pit prison following his daughter’s escape, the paradigm of their relationship had shifted—Bane was no longer Talia’s protector; instead, Talia guarded him with the ferocious tenacity of a lioness, whether it was from Choden’s medical ministrations or from her father’s persistent encouragement for Bane’s return to physical activity. Sometimes her behavior amused Bane; other times it mortified him. After nurturing her since the day of her birth—and as sole caregiver after her mother’s murder when Talia’s was five—Bane found nothing as frustrating as knowing that he was now incapable of continuing his role, a role that had given him true purpose in life.
Talia’s insistence on being with Bane whenever he was subjected to challenges, such as the fitting of this mask, was not always favored by Ducard. Though Ducard was sympathetic to Bane’s physical trials, he was also a man of great personal fortitude, as were all of the men under his command, and though Talia was merely a child, Ducard expected a certain amount of strength from his daughter as well. Sometimes Bane wondered if Ducard wished his offspring were a boy, not out of any disdain for the so-called weaker sex but because of the type of life he led, a life that was still primarily a mystery to Bane but one that was most assuredly different from the lives led by so many the world over. Everything about Ducard and the men who lived here at this converted monastery and those who came and went was shrouded in secrecy. Occasionally Bane gathered enough nerve to ask veiled questions of his guardian, but usually the cryptic responses he received subtly warned him not to delve too deeply. Yet Bane also sensed that a part of Ducard wanted to open at least part of his world to Bane, perhaps the way he would share his life if he had a son of his own. It was in those moments that Bane wanted nothing more than to earn Ducard’s esteem…and perhaps eventually his love.
Choden was saying, “This time you must keep your eyes closed, Bane, until I tell you to open them, yes?”
Bane nodded then shut his eyes. Talia squeezed his hand to bolster him and remind him that, although he could not see her, she would remain there for him.
“Breathe deeply,” Choden droned. “In through your nose…out through your mouth, using your diaphragm always. Yes…that’s it. Feel the air lift and expand your chest. Then release and feel the energy flow down into your arms, your fingers, your legs, and your feet, relaxing every muscle as it goes. Imagine yourself outside in the open, the sky blue and wide, the mountains strong and bright. You have no fear.”
As Choden coached him, he carefully placed the mask once again, gently at first, then tighter, closer as he adjusted the straps that ran alongside Bane’s cheekbones and jaw, then fastened them at the back of Bane’s head, which was shaved to ensure the mask’s snug fit.
“Now,” Choden continued, “keeping your eyes closed, feel the mask. Feel it conform to your face, feel it become a part of you, feel it assist your breathing. Breathe…continue to breathe deeply.” He tapped the small chamber at the back of the apparatus, and a small hiss sounded, followed by an influx of vapor, very fine, soothing like a light breeze, moist at first, then the moisture faded. The inhalant filled Bane’s senses, momentarily overpowering him, and fear returned, trying to convince him that what he was inhaling would harm, not help, him.
But just before panic could take over and force his eyes open, Bane heard Ducard’s smooth, throaty voice, close, as if he stood just over Choden’s shoulder: “Don’t fight it, Bane. Draw it deep within you. Relax and allow it, welcome it.”
Talia still held onto him. With one finger, she gently stroked the back of his hand, ever so lightly, like a feather. This, along with Ducard’s strong presence, succeeded in pushing back Bane’s terror. The compound expelled by the mask seemed to stabilize, no longer overwhelming him. His quickened pulse began to slow, the sound of his respiration no longer wheezing through the mask’s ports.
“Good,” Ducard murmured with satisfaction. “You must make yourself stronger than your fear. You must control it, and once you are able to do that, it can become your ally.”
The concept Ducard presented was not foreign to Bane, not after surviving twenty-five years in prison. Though he had been the youngest male prisoner, he had been feared by many for both his physical strength and his superior intellect…and he had used those assets to his advantage, for his own sake as well as for the sake of Talia and her mother, Melisande.
Choden quietly said, “Open your eyes now. Slowly. Look only at me.”
Still cautious, Bane obeyed, first simply cracking his eyelids open as slits. Choden stared back at him, strength in his dark gaze, a strength he tried to bestow upon Bane. Talia’s grip tightened upon his hand, and he knew she was holding her breath. He opened his eyes further, saw that Ducard was indeed standing at Choden’s right shoulder. Ducard’s gray gaze held none of the uncertainty that Bane felt, and from this Bane drew inspiration.
The pale, hard plastic molding of the upper part of the mask easily invaded Bane’s field of vision, but he forced himself not to focus upon it. Instead he continued to hold Ducard’s stare. Ducard was not a man prone to effusive facial expressions, but now he allowed a pleased smile.
“How do you feel?” Ducard asked.
Since the attack, Bane had received morphine through injections and IVs. Today, before Choden had attempted to fit Bane’s mask, the IV had been disconnected. Bane credited that as being part of the cause for his panic, not simply because stopping the drug would allow the agony to return but because, after weeks of being a slave to the opiate, he knew stopping it would bring its own torture. Yet he had reminded himself that the purpose of removing the IV was to test the mask’s ability to administer its own concentrated painkiller and that he would not be deprived of his usual dosage for more than the few minutes Choden expected the fitting to take.
Now, following Ducard’s question, Bane focused upon his pain, realized it was not as severe as a moment ago.
“Try to breathe normally now,” Choden said.
Bane allowed himself to look at Talia. To his great relief, she showed no sign of revulsion at his strange new visage. Instead she appeared keenly interested, chewing on her bottom lip as she often did when anxious.
“Is the medicine working?” she asked hopefully.
Bane nodded, though in truth the pain—while lessened—certainly was not completely eradicated. But at that moment he was happy to lie in order to erase her worry.
“Try to speak,” Ducard encouraged.
Feeling foolish, Bane said, “What should I say?” His speech was already distorted by the damage to his mouth, and the mask muffled the sound so that his words were even more indistinct now, disappointing him.
“Hmm,” Choden pondered with a glance up at Ducard.
“Do not be discouraged,” Ducard told Bane. “The doctor expects this to be trial and error, as I’ve told you before. You will wear it for a couple of weeks, then I will let him know what needs to be improved. Be patient, my boy.”
“I’m sure you’ll get used to it,” Talia said, though poorly disguising her concerns.
Bane nodded, hoping he was convincing. “How much of a supply does it hold?” he asked Ducard and Choden.
“Unfortunately only a couple of hours,” Ducard replied. “The doctor is trying to improve the drug’s performance. Again, trial and error. I’m sorry I cannot offer you more than that.”
“I understand. And I appreciate everything you have done for me.”
Ducard stepped closer and briefly touched his shoulder with that same indulgent smile. “I know you do. Now I must be on my way. As I explained to Talia this morning, I will be gone for a week to attend to an urgent matter. And,” he added with a glint of pleasure in his eye, “by the time I return I believe I will have news of your grandfather. By then, if the mask is serviceable and you are able to tolerate it, you will be able to travel with me to meet him.”
The prospect of finally being able to mete out justice for what Thomas Dorrance had done to his mother and thus to Bane himself allowed him to momentarily forget the discomfort of the mask.
“I will be ready,” Bane promised.
When we last left Bane and Talia, they were with Henri Ducard at the mountain headquarters of the League of Shadows where Bane is recovering from injuries suffered during Talia's escape from the pit.
One
Within seconds of the mask closing over his mouth and nose, Bane panicked. He could not breathe, and the world closed in upon him, as if he were back in the pit prison and the shaft were collapsing over him.
“Get it off!” he cried, scrabbling with his fingers to find the fasteners where the mask wrapped around the back of his head.
“Wait,” Choden, his medical attendant, insisted, attempting to block Bane’s efforts. “Breathe. Breathe and relax.”
“I can’t breathe! Take it off!”
“You’re hurting him!” Talia’s shrill voice added to the confusion in the room. The ten-year-old tried to pull away from her father, who stood watching, but Henri Ducard’s large hands upon her shoulders held her in place. “Choden, stop! Take it off!”
At last Bane dislodged the mask, which Choden had not been able to completely secure due to his patient’s struggles. Bane batted it from his face, and as it fell beside him on his bed, he jumped to his feet, shoved away from Choden, and stood with his back to the near wall, facing his tormentor, gasping through the wreckage of his mutilated face. Even though he was dosed with morphine, sharp pain still found its way through the drug’s defense. Talia broke free from her father—or perhaps Ducard released her—and she ran to Bane, throwing her arms around his waist and staring defiantly, protectively over her shoulder at Choden. The Tibetan attendant sighed and shook his head.
“Bane,” Ducard said in his usual placid tone, stepping forward to pick up the mask. “A claustrophobic reaction is expected, but you must face your fear and conquer it quickly or this—” he held up the mask, “—cannot help you. And without this, you have no hope of a fully functioning existence. You’ve refused surgery; this is your only option now.”
As he listened to Ducard, Bane forcibly slowed his breathing, closed his eyes momentarily, nodded in resignation. Yet his heart still hammered against his chest; no doubt Talia could hear it from where she pressed against him. He briefly, appreciatively returned her embrace, gaining strength from her touch, one hand stroking her new growth of hair—dark and soft, like her mother’s hair had been. He hated for her to see him with his bandages off and his injuries thus laid bare—his nose in ruin, having nearly been severed from his face, deep lacerations that were still healing, some that refused to knit, his torn lips giving him a permanent, gruesome grimace that revealed several missing teeth; all the result of a horrendous beating suffered at the hands of fellow inmates when he had fought to keep them away from Talia on the day of her escape.
“I’m sorry, Choden,” Bane said, embarrassed now by his display of weakness and fear.
His ever-tolerant attendant bowed with understanding. “You needed to prepare yourself better,” Choden said. “I warned you. You were too eager for this to work, too sure of your own abilities. Humility is a valuable virtue, my friend, one you would do well to learn. Now come…sit back down.”
“You don’t have to, habibi,” Talia said defensively. “Why don’t you wait to try it on tomorrow?” She gave Choden a chilly, challenging glance.
Bane had noticed a change in Talia ever since word had arrived that the prototype mask was finished and would soon be delivered to their refuge high in the Himilayas. He had expected her to be excited and anxious, as he had been, but instead she had grown quiet and thoughtful. Now, looking into her large blue eyes, he realized that she was afraid, afraid that the mask would enable him to regain some semblance of his old self and then that would lead to him leaving her to find his own way in the world, a world that was virtually unknown to the two of them after spending all of their young lives unjustly incarcerated in an underground prison until two months ago.
“Talia,” Ducard said. “It is Bane’s decision to make.”
“It’s all right, habibati,” Bane assured, gently taking her by the shoulders and urging her back from him. “I should try again. Choden and your father are right.”
She frowned with worry and held his hand, all the while bravely refusing to look away from the ruination of his face. He knew that seeing him without his bandages caused Talia as much emotional pain as they caused him physical pain because she blamed herself for what had happened to him, no matter how many times he insisted she abandon her guilt. So the sooner he allowed the mask to hide these marks from her, the better.
She continued to hold his hand as he returned to the bed where she then sat close beside him, all the while keeping her attention upon him. Ever since Talia’s father had rescued him from the pit prison following his daughter’s escape, the paradigm of their relationship had shifted—Bane was no longer Talia’s protector; instead, Talia guarded him with the ferocious tenacity of a lioness, whether it was from Choden’s medical ministrations or from her father’s persistent encouragement for Bane’s return to physical activity. Sometimes her behavior amused Bane; other times it mortified him. After nurturing her since the day of her birth—and as sole caregiver after her mother’s murder when Talia’s was five—Bane found nothing as frustrating as knowing that he was now incapable of continuing his role, a role that had given him true purpose in life.
Talia’s insistence on being with Bane whenever he was subjected to challenges, such as the fitting of this mask, was not always favored by Ducard. Though Ducard was sympathetic to Bane’s physical trials, he was also a man of great personal fortitude, as were all of the men under his command, and though Talia was merely a child, Ducard expected a certain amount of strength from his daughter as well. Sometimes Bane wondered if Ducard wished his offspring were a boy, not out of any disdain for the so-called weaker sex but because of the type of life he led, a life that was still primarily a mystery to Bane but one that was most assuredly different from the lives led by so many the world over. Everything about Ducard and the men who lived here at this converted monastery and those who came and went was shrouded in secrecy. Occasionally Bane gathered enough nerve to ask veiled questions of his guardian, but usually the cryptic responses he received subtly warned him not to delve too deeply. Yet Bane also sensed that a part of Ducard wanted to open at least part of his world to Bane, perhaps the way he would share his life if he had a son of his own. It was in those moments that Bane wanted nothing more than to earn Ducard’s esteem…and perhaps eventually his love.
Choden was saying, “This time you must keep your eyes closed, Bane, until I tell you to open them, yes?”
Bane nodded then shut his eyes. Talia squeezed his hand to bolster him and remind him that, although he could not see her, she would remain there for him.
“Breathe deeply,” Choden droned. “In through your nose…out through your mouth, using your diaphragm always. Yes…that’s it. Feel the air lift and expand your chest. Then release and feel the energy flow down into your arms, your fingers, your legs, and your feet, relaxing every muscle as it goes. Imagine yourself outside in the open, the sky blue and wide, the mountains strong and bright. You have no fear.”
As Choden coached him, he carefully placed the mask once again, gently at first, then tighter, closer as he adjusted the straps that ran alongside Bane’s cheekbones and jaw, then fastened them at the back of Bane’s head, which was shaved to ensure the mask’s snug fit.
“Now,” Choden continued, “keeping your eyes closed, feel the mask. Feel it conform to your face, feel it become a part of you, feel it assist your breathing. Breathe…continue to breathe deeply.” He tapped the small chamber at the back of the apparatus, and a small hiss sounded, followed by an influx of vapor, very fine, soothing like a light breeze, moist at first, then the moisture faded. The inhalant filled Bane’s senses, momentarily overpowering him, and fear returned, trying to convince him that what he was inhaling would harm, not help, him.
But just before panic could take over and force his eyes open, Bane heard Ducard’s smooth, throaty voice, close, as if he stood just over Choden’s shoulder: “Don’t fight it, Bane. Draw it deep within you. Relax and allow it, welcome it.”
Talia still held onto him. With one finger, she gently stroked the back of his hand, ever so lightly, like a feather. This, along with Ducard’s strong presence, succeeded in pushing back Bane’s terror. The compound expelled by the mask seemed to stabilize, no longer overwhelming him. His quickened pulse began to slow, the sound of his respiration no longer wheezing through the mask’s ports.
“Good,” Ducard murmured with satisfaction. “You must make yourself stronger than your fear. You must control it, and once you are able to do that, it can become your ally.”
The concept Ducard presented was not foreign to Bane, not after surviving twenty-five years in prison. Though he had been the youngest male prisoner, he had been feared by many for both his physical strength and his superior intellect…and he had used those assets to his advantage, for his own sake as well as for the sake of Talia and her mother, Melisande.
Choden quietly said, “Open your eyes now. Slowly. Look only at me.”
Still cautious, Bane obeyed, first simply cracking his eyelids open as slits. Choden stared back at him, strength in his dark gaze, a strength he tried to bestow upon Bane. Talia’s grip tightened upon his hand, and he knew she was holding her breath. He opened his eyes further, saw that Ducard was indeed standing at Choden’s right shoulder. Ducard’s gray gaze held none of the uncertainty that Bane felt, and from this Bane drew inspiration.
The pale, hard plastic molding of the upper part of the mask easily invaded Bane’s field of vision, but he forced himself not to focus upon it. Instead he continued to hold Ducard’s stare. Ducard was not a man prone to effusive facial expressions, but now he allowed a pleased smile.
“How do you feel?” Ducard asked.
Since the attack, Bane had received morphine through injections and IVs. Today, before Choden had attempted to fit Bane’s mask, the IV had been disconnected. Bane credited that as being part of the cause for his panic, not simply because stopping the drug would allow the agony to return but because, after weeks of being a slave to the opiate, he knew stopping it would bring its own torture. Yet he had reminded himself that the purpose of removing the IV was to test the mask’s ability to administer its own concentrated painkiller and that he would not be deprived of his usual dosage for more than the few minutes Choden expected the fitting to take.
Now, following Ducard’s question, Bane focused upon his pain, realized it was not as severe as a moment ago.
“Try to breathe normally now,” Choden said.
Bane allowed himself to look at Talia. To his great relief, she showed no sign of revulsion at his strange new visage. Instead she appeared keenly interested, chewing on her bottom lip as she often did when anxious.
“Is the medicine working?” she asked hopefully.
Bane nodded, though in truth the pain—while lessened—certainly was not completely eradicated. But at that moment he was happy to lie in order to erase her worry.
“Try to speak,” Ducard encouraged.
Feeling foolish, Bane said, “What should I say?” His speech was already distorted by the damage to his mouth, and the mask muffled the sound so that his words were even more indistinct now, disappointing him.
“Hmm,” Choden pondered with a glance up at Ducard.
“Do not be discouraged,” Ducard told Bane. “The doctor expects this to be trial and error, as I’ve told you before. You will wear it for a couple of weeks, then I will let him know what needs to be improved. Be patient, my boy.”
“I’m sure you’ll get used to it,” Talia said, though poorly disguising her concerns.
Bane nodded, hoping he was convincing. “How much of a supply does it hold?” he asked Ducard and Choden.
“Unfortunately only a couple of hours,” Ducard replied. “The doctor is trying to improve the drug’s performance. Again, trial and error. I’m sorry I cannot offer you more than that.”
“I understand. And I appreciate everything you have done for me.”
Ducard stepped closer and briefly touched his shoulder with that same indulgent smile. “I know you do. Now I must be on my way. As I explained to Talia this morning, I will be gone for a week to attend to an urgent matter. And,” he added with a glint of pleasure in his eye, “by the time I return I believe I will have news of your grandfather. By then, if the mask is serviceable and you are able to tolerate it, you will be able to travel with me to meet him.”
The prospect of finally being able to mete out justice for what Thomas Dorrance had done to his mother and thus to Bane himself allowed him to momentarily forget the discomfort of the mask.
“I will be ready,” Bane promised.